CURRENTLY MEDITATING ON ... 2013!!!
In 2013 ... My family and I will be staying put. Yup! We're staying in our home, with the ducks (",).
In 2013, I am submitting these areas of my life, previously withheld, to the Almighty; My Body (which I abused with food and toxins); My Marriage (which I tried to manage with my limited wisdom); and My Daily Life (which I tried to direct and control on my own terms).
In 2013, I am open to how God wishes to direct my life. I have no career plans what-so-ever.
In 2013, I am FLY (Finally Loving Myself), exactly as I am, with exactly what I have. And it will be enough.
In 2013, I am establishing honest, healthy and positive relationships. Low drama - because 'no drama' is a man alone on an island.
In 2013, I am broadening my mind, expanding my spirit, and transforming my conscious awareness through a consistent spiritual practice.
And, in 2013, if I am successful in this, I will be a blessing to others around me.
Happy 2013 guys! Many blessings to you and you loved ones.
In 2013, I am submitting these areas of my life, previously withheld, to the Almighty; My Body (which I abused with food and toxins); My Marriage (which I tried to manage with my limited wisdom); and My Daily Life (which I tried to direct and control on my own terms).
In 2013, I am open to how God wishes to direct my life. I have no career plans what-so-ever.
In 2013, I am FLY (Finally Loving Myself), exactly as I am, with exactly what I have. And it will be enough.
In 2013, I am establishing honest, healthy and positive relationships. Low drama - because 'no drama' is a man alone on an island.
In 2013, I am broadening my mind, expanding my spirit, and transforming my conscious awareness through a consistent spiritual practice.
And, in 2013, if I am successful in this, I will be a blessing to others around me.
Happy 2013 guys! Many blessings to you and you loved ones.
BIRTHDAY UPDATE 28/11/2012
THREE DECADES. Wow. Happy 30th Birthday Davinia J and I can believe it too. First of all I want to give thanks to God Almighty who saw fit to allow me see 30 years of life. That is a wonderful gift and I am so grateful for every single day of it. I want to give a big shout out to mothers, fathers, sisters and brothers who have loved ones that did not get to see 30 years in this physical realm, your beloved is in a Good Place.
I can genuinely from the bottom of my heart give thanks to my daddy in heaven and my amazing mother for the gift of life they gave me, for each day they loved me and sacrificed for me. You are the reason I am here today and I am so grateful. To my sister and brother, I would not be the same person without your influence and gift of love – thank you. I give thanks to my beloved husband Sean for your patience, strength and unyielding love, and I especially thank you for Douglas, my son and my heart. You two are my special gifts from God. To Douglas – you have opened my eyes to the true meaning of life and love, it was not about the things I chased after before you came to me. Thank you for your smile and your lessons. To my loved ones and friends (those currently in my life and those who are not) thank you for your guidance, you brought and still bring light into my life every day and I am so grateful for that.
What does it feel like, for me, being 30? Leading up to this day I have been praying, studying and meditating, asking God to clarify the truth from the lies about who I am. I believed that the lies about who I am make me feel unhappy and frustrated with myself and my ability to deal with life’s challenges when they come, and I wanted to get past that in my 30s. So what did God do in response to my prayers? Naturally, He sent me the biggest, most difficult challenge I have faced so far: I made a choice to leave the Teach First programme to work from home so I could be the kind of mother I needed to be to my baby, and the kind of wife I wanted to be to my husband. And as a result of that my family was/is under threat of losing our current home. What! A decision I made, to follow my beliefs and values, to honour what I believed was the voice of God guiding me, has not led immediately to glory and roses, instead has come with great difficulty and a deep questioning and challenge of my CHARACTER. Will said character be strengthened or broken by such weight? Will I get angry and blame God and everyone else for causing this situation? Will I regret and backtrack on myself because the going is ridiculously tough? The answer … is … YES. My character did not stand up to the challenge, I got angry, blamed, regretted and tried to backtrack. I may be 30 today, but I am still human.
God did answer my prayers to show me the truth about why I am so unhappy with myself, with people, and with my life as it is. And it has been painful receiving His answer. I held and still hold false beliefs about why I am here, why I have the gift of life. I believe(d) that life is for me to enjoy, yes to work but as a result of my work I gain certain benefits. If I love, I get love in return. If I give, I get certain things in return. If I believe in God, He will rub my back as I rub His. I thought life was based on the rule of reciprocity. So when I did X and did not get Y, I felt angry, frustrated and disillusioned. I believe now that there is certain wisdom that can only come with the passage of time. A true understanding of patience can only come with the time it takes to exercise it. True faith and perseverance can only be experienced through the time it takes to bear up under a test. So now, being 30 I still believe that God is with me, in me and working through me. But I no longer believe that this will look one way or the other. And in this knowledge I believe I can find the peace and strength to see me through the ups and downs of life.
Over this 30th decade, I pray that God continues to strengthen my character and give me wisdom to see the oak tree residing inside a small acorn, that is, to not despise small beginnings, but to be GRATEFUL always, whether the sun is shining or the clouds are dark. I pray that my ego-self continues to die slowly, so that my true spirit, the same spirit that was in Jesus Christ, and is in all of us, can shine the light of God into the world.
God bless you, and thank you for opening your heart and mind to mine.
Blessings always,
Davinia x
My Joy ...
NEWS UPDATE 21/03/2011
Welcome to my online journal, my blogosphere, the place where you get to know me and I you.
Well I graduated at last! I mean I REALLY graduated, with a 2:1 and honours in BSc Business Enterprise, PLUS two awards - the Horlogerie Kandahar Prize for Outstanding Achievement (a beautiful handmade Swiss watch, engraved) and the Viscount Monckton of Brenchley Memorial Prize for Entrepreneurial Spirit (a lovely Waterman fountain pen). I kept walking up and down that aisle like the catwalk my outfit suggested it was!
My hubby graduated too and we moved to a very peaceful new home in Buckinghamshire that I have been decorating lovingly. Douglas is 5 months old as I type this, and the most handsome, energetic, smilely baby you've ever met. I can't wait to post more videoblogs and photos of him, I plan to keep myself nicely occupied turning him into my little model/thespian, which you can follow on his FB fan page shown to the right =======>
I am currently occupied preparing for Teach First, I leave for the 6 weeks residential training in June and Douglas has to be comfortable with solids and a routine by then (yes I am STILL breastfeeding him exclusively!) as he will be staying with his dad; becoming an Ofsted registered childminder as my job until I start teaching in September; and being the best wife and mommy I can be. Thus, I have been too busy even for Facebook these days! *shock, horror*
But resuming my blogging and video blogging is at the top of my hobbies list, I have not forgotten you all. It's just work and family priorities at the moment.
I continue to pray for you and wish you Health, Wealth and Love in your life, and I thank you as always for your prayers and well wishes.
Dx
